tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-359315292024-03-13T05:29:22.860-06:00Whut's Uh Blog?I may have figured that out.Lynnhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00366766609021695748noreply@blogger.comBlogger65125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-35931529.post-52211526380650256462011-02-26T02:09:00.002-06:002011-02-26T02:19:18.284-06:00Hmmm...I don't really have anything to write about other than the fact that I am inexplicably awake at 2am. I'm either going to have to force my self to go to bed, or go buy more ciggies. Since I know I'm just gonna toss & turn. Guess I'll grab my keys! lol<br /><br />Hope everyone is doing well.<br /><br />Dana...I still treasure the story you wrote for me.<br /><br />Trav...I still miss the magical foxholes.<br /><br />Right now I'm watching the bio of Marky Mark & Donnie Wahlberg (?) for the second time tonight. Guess I could at least channel surf. I might run across one of those paid advertisements that sells Bedazzlers, or colon cleansing pills, or a get rich quick scheme. You must never know. Oh wait, they do have those... ahem... massage implement advertisements on this late. Although some of them puzzle me. Can you Bedazzle them I wonder??Lynnhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00366766609021695748noreply@blogger.com7tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-35931529.post-16616014846115480842010-11-24T00:30:00.004-06:002010-11-24T02:29:09.968-06:00I Miss My Old LifeI am constantly fighting demons. i miss my old life.<br /><br />Joe and I divorced over a year ago. And the loss is bone-crushingly, heart-breakingly the end of the best part of my life.<br /><br />People tell me, "You'll meet someone else." But right now, I don't want to. I want to stay in my little home and live with myself.<br /><br />It's too hard, too gut-wrenching to put myself out there. I've done it a few times, and all I've gotten were more broken hearts. And my heart has taken all it can stand right now.<br /><br />I miss having someone who loves me, who takes care of me, who makes me laugh, who will snuggle with me, and who understands me. <br /><br />We built a life together and now it's gone.<br /><br />We built our dream home where we planned to live out the rest of our lives, and now it's gone.<br /><br />He's moved on and I tell myself I'm happy for him. But I'm also hurt. He gave me emotional security, a feeling that I was worth something, the illusion that I was beautiful, a sense of financial security, and the encouragement to carry on. Now all of it is gone.<br /><br />We had very difficult times, but I suppose all marriages do. Why didn't I work harder at it? Why didn't he work harder at it?<br /><br />I truly believe that the connection we had was a once in a lifetime event. But I...we...threw it all away like the previous 25 years did not matter.<br /><br />My soul-mate, my best friend, my biggest supporter. And I believe if you ask him, he will say the same things about me.<br /><br />When I just gave up on our marriage, I gave up on everything good in my life.<br /><br />And I will never be able to recapture that again. How sad.<br /><br />Like I've said before, it was like getting this beautiful gift from God and just throwing it back in his face.<br /><br />As Sam solemnly and sincerely said to Diane on the sitcom "Cheers"... Have a good life.<br /><br />Joe, you are truly one of the really good people on this earth. I was privileged to be a part of your life.Lynnhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00366766609021695748noreply@blogger.com8tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-35931529.post-62756179047551154422009-12-18T03:13:00.002-06:002009-12-18T03:31:44.713-06:00They Call Some The BreezeWell, here I go again.<br /><br />I wish I was one of those amazingly cheery and humorous bloggers. And, I admit, sometimes I am.<br /><br />But mostly I post when I feel...Just when I feel. Something.<br /><br />I wonder why life is a hard thing for some people and a breeze for others. What is it that distinguishes the two?<br /><br />I so want to be one of those breezers. One of those lucky people who can soar on just the whisper of a wind and rise higher and higher and higher.<br /><br />Is it something you are genetically gifted with? Or something that you learn? Or something you don't even realize you have?<br /><br />One thing is for sure. Those who can't catch those breezes wind up, feet firmly on the ground, watching those lucky others circle higher and higher, seeming without a care.<br /><br />Oh how I wish with all of my body and soul that I could be one of those risk takers, dreamers who believe that their dreams will come true for them, a person that is not so grounded in the quicksand of reality that no matter how far I hold out my arms, I don't have the feathers necessary to take flight.<br /><br />How blissful that feeling would be.<br /><br />I can only imagine.Lynnhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00366766609021695748noreply@blogger.com9tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-35931529.post-17571783453961461742009-03-29T18:04:00.003-06:002009-03-29T18:11:15.610-06:00I miss my friend so much.I miss my friend so much.<br /><br />I miss my friend so much.<br /><br />I miss my friend so much.<br /><br />I miss my friend so much.<br /><br />I'm so very sad.<br /><br />He hates me.<br /><br />Nothing but a friend.<br /><br />Had a misunderstanding.<br /><br />Can't straighten it out.<br /><br />I miss my friend so much.<br /><br />I miss my friend so much.<br /><br />Wish I didn't.<br /><br />Hate him sometimes.<br /><br />I miss my friend so much.<br /><br />Trying to hate him more.<br /><br />I miss my friend so much.<br /><br />Makes it easier to move on.<br /><br />I miss my friend so much.<br /><br />I miss my friend so much.<br /><br />I miss my friend so much.<br /><br />I hate myself for doing whatever I did.<br /><br />I miss my friend so much.<br /><br />Will just keep crying I guess.<br /><br />I miss my friend so much.<br /><br />I miss my friend so much.<br /><br />I miss my friend so much.Lynnhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00366766609021695748noreply@blogger.com11tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-35931529.post-47103648501136245152009-02-01T12:32:00.005-06:002009-02-01T16:42:23.718-06:00God Given Talent and Unlimited PossibilitiesI have a friend. He is one of those people who is charismatic, brilliant, talented, and doesn’t have a clue how blessed he is.<br /><br />Well maybe a small clue.<br /><br />He’s finishing up his degree in business and feels a strong obligation and drive to find a “real job” in the “real world”.<br /><br />I keep telling him that he will hate it. Being cooped up in a small office or worse yet, a tinier cubicle, processing paperwork all day. A job that won’t allow him explore his unlimited potential. A job that will stifle his creativity and free spirit and will probably leave him unfulfilled.<br /> <br />Can’t he see that his possibilities are unlimited? That the world deserves more than another mortgage broker or investment counselor? That he has the ability to make contributions that would enrich our world and more importantly his?<br /> <br />I’ve listened to him brainstorm about business ventures he would like to undertake. Jobs that he would like to have. The money he wants to make. He has high aspirations and is confident enough to make them happen.<br /><br />None of the ideas I have heard will let him use the unbounded creativity or his charismatic personality. I find that offensive and odious.<br /><br />My friend has a gift. One that I cannot even imagine possessing. He is talented. But the word talent isn’t big enough to describe what he has.<br /> <br />He is a music man. A songwriter, a singer, a musician, an entertainer with words and a voice that can break your heart or lift your spirits. Oh what is must be like to have those extraordinary gifts.<br /> <br />These are gifts that God gave him.<br /> <br />He didn’t have to take years of lessons or spend hours of tedious practice to be able to do what he does. A God given gift is one that comes naturally and one that you cannot be happy without using.<br /> <br />The following story is more revealing than even he knew. I have never seen him as excited as he was on this particular day.<br /><br />He has his own recording equipment. A few weeks ago he bought a new piece of equipment to add to his studio. He was practically jumping up and down at the prospect of using it. Rubbing his hands together like he couldn’t wait to use those hands to create more music. And smiling like the sun was shining through him. It made me happy to see him so excited.<br /><br />So I asked him, “Has anything made you this excited lately? This idea of making music you’ve not been able to make before?” Of all of his lofty business-minded goals, this one piece of $200 equipment made him the most energized I have seen him. Music is his passion. The thing that brings him the most joy.<br /> <br />And I wonder why he cannot see that about himself?<br /><br />Why can’t he see that when I can see it so clearly it makes my heart ache?<br /><br />The thing that is most insulting to me is that I would give almost anything to possess that kind of talent and passion.<br /><br />It makes me wonder how God doles out talent. Why does he bestow that much creativity, and the ability to use it, upon some and none to others? Do those who possess this ability take it for granted? I think almost all of them do. Offensive.<br /><br />To listen to him expound on the many business ventures he has thought of makes heart sink. I hate him.<br /><br />I hate him for having these incredible gifts that God so generously granted him. And I hate him for not using them. It’s like throwing this priceless thing back in God’s face or putting it in a drawer.<br /><br />I love the sound of music being made. It is one of the things that entrances, amazes, and depresses me all at the same time. Nothing makes me happier than to have him sit in my living room, or on the porch, inventing funny songs or leading a sing-along, or hearing him discover particular riffs that I can’t get out of my head.<br /><br />I know he’s gone through the “gig” thing. But with such unlimited potential and talent and drive, isn’t there some kind of job, some kind of opportunity that would allow him to share his enriching, spirit-lifting, joyful, heart-breaking, special, rare, and enviable gifts with all of us? It’s just plain selfish to keep that to himself.<br /><br />Just plain selfish.<br /><br />I love him and hate him at the same time.Lynnhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00366766609021695748noreply@blogger.com5tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-35931529.post-38516831540272071432008-12-12T01:46:00.002-06:002008-12-12T01:58:13.675-06:00Not Too ShabbyI just re-read some of (well, all of) my old posts on Blogger. And I ain't half-bad as a blogger/writer. In fact, I think I do pretty well. I actually impressed myself. *wiggles head prissily*<br /><br />Maybe I'll get inspired and write more soon. I hope. It was a lot of fun reading them again. Kind of like traveling back in time. What a ride.Lynnhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00366766609021695748noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-35931529.post-90837920498827147582008-11-17T20:05:00.003-06:002008-11-17T20:11:55.023-06:00Friends Move On<em>I know that I don't blog here anymore, but I wanted to publish this somewhere. If you happen to read it, leave a comment if you like. I'll try to check back in sometime soon. This is more for me I guess.</em><br /><em></em><br /><em>_____________________________</em><br /><em></em><br />FRIENDS MOVE ON<br /><br />Wow. I don’t know where to start.<br /><br />All I know is that I have an empty place inside of me. I can actually feel it physically and it is a sad, sad feeling.<br /><br />I made a friend, or rather a buddy, a few weeks ago. He was everything I wanted in someone to pal around with.<br /><br />Funny. We laughed constantly. He is a comedian. Not a pro (yet). But he will be if that is what he wants. He made up comic bits on the fly and I couldn’t quit laughing. Keeping me entertained is no easy thing. But he could make me laugh for days. Literally.<br /><br />Talented. He plays acoustic guitar, writes his own songs, and sings so well it makes me all googley eyed.. You see, I am enthralled with men with that kind of talent. It is rare to find and it is one of the things that I love to have in my life. I miss hearing him play his clever, sweet and funny songs. I miss hearing him sing. I miss the way he smiles when he is playing and singing something amusing. It is heart-wrenching. There are a lot of musicians out there with a similar talent, but no one who captured my imagination like he did.<br /><br />Sincere. We talked a lot about ourselves during our short friendship. I learned about his life so far, about what he is looking for in a girlfriend, about his dreams for the future. And I opened up with a few things about myself. And he listened. How rare is that?<br /><br />Cuddle-able. One of the things I miss most about being separated from my husband is not having someone to lay down and cuddle with. My friend and I never had sex or anything close to it. We would just lay in bed and laugh and spoon each other or I would lay my head on his chest. It was so wonderful and comforting and it felt so good.<br /><br />I miss him so much it makes me cry. And I have selfishly cried over my loss many times. I know that he never imagined that I would value our friendship so much. And truthfully, until it was gone I didn’t imagine it either. It’s like he crashed into my life, filled it up with himself, and then left it empty when he moved out of my life. He is so charismatic that he probably makes most people feel that way.<br /><br />He tells me that we will still get together now and then. But he is busy and has moved ahead and I am so happy for him. I truly am.<br /><br />He landed a great job working nights. At a comedy club no less. That way he can still go to school and get his degree. But it means no more music or tequila on the porch or staying up all night talking and laughing or cuddling.<br /><br />He found a girlfriend who he is crazy about and makes him happy. He told me that when they are alone, they cook, watch movies, hang out. He sounds so happy to have found her. And I am glad that he did. But it means no more music or tequila on the porch or staying up all night talking and laughing or cuddling.<br /><br />He asked me once why women hold on for so long. I told him that we were like puppies. If you are nice to us, we will desperately want to follow you home. It’s ironic isn’t it? I just never imagined myself as one of those puppies left on the side of the road crying longingly as I watched him move away.<br /><br />It is said that people come into your life for a purpose. And there is a reason that they move out of your life.<br /><br />Whatever the reason, I miss him.<br /><br />I miss him.<br /><br />I miss him.<br /><br />I miss him.<br /><br />I miss him.<br />----------------------------------------<br />Good luck, Wes. I wish you only the best. Keep moving forward.<br />Maybe we’ll have a few shots of tequila sometime. I’ll buy.Lynnhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00366766609021695748noreply@blogger.com4tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-35931529.post-28914179919761608332008-05-19T22:34:00.002-06:002008-05-19T22:47:52.213-06:00No. Really. I AM going to write about...The mysterious invisible entity in the backyard that enthralls my dog.<br /><br />Hearing the words, "If you were five years younger..." (Ouch)<br /><br />Bodywork.<br /><br />My take on Hip-Hop; political and/or ecological rap/poetry/hip-hop; and on being green.<br /><br />What are the meteorological chances?<br /><br />Yes he's cute, young and stupid, but he is also.....<br /><br />The three faces of Scamper (my dog) and why I cannot take her for a public walk.<br /><br />uhhh....And some other things too.Lynnhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00366766609021695748noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-35931529.post-38410534953334330592008-05-13T19:13:00.002-06:002008-05-13T19:31:39.866-06:00Get Ready All Of You Who Read My Lame Ass Blog (i heart trav)I am going to bear my soul on my blog. And I might be doing it for a while. Feel like I've got some things to say and this is the safest place I can say them. I'm not going to write for sympathy or advice or censure. I am writing so I can put what I want to say out there somewhere in cyberspace so no one (or some one) can hear.<br /><br /><br /><br />And it's not all bad stuff! I swear!<br /><br /><br /><br />Feel free to comment, but I can betcha I know what you will say before you even type it! (I'm psychotic---I mean psychic----that way.)<br /><br />First blog in a series will follow shortly........Lynnhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00366766609021695748noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-35931529.post-66258454121788317342008-05-06T21:57:00.007-06:002009-05-02T17:31:56.998-06:00This One's For The GirlsI was a fan of horse racing. I went to the Santa Anita Racecourse in Los Angeles a few years ago and watched some wonderful, beautiful thoroughbreds race. And the jockeys on their backs were just as amazing as the horses.<br /><br />The day I visited the Santa Anita was one of the most memorable of my life. This was where Seabiscuit made his debut and amazing, unlikely comeback. I had my picture taken with the statue of this remarkable animal and with Gary Stevens, one of the winningest jockeys in the sport.<br /><br />I learned a lot about horse racing. It can be an awe inspiring and breath taking sport. Watching athletic horses with talented jockeys atop them is a sight to behold.<br />But I don't keep up too much anymore since Gary Stevens retired from racing.<br /><br />At the 2008 Kentucky Derby, Eight Belles was just the latest in a long line of tragic thoroughbred racing stories. She finished second to Big Brown. A huge feat for a filly. As the jockey was cooling her down, she broke both of her front ankles, collapsing on the track. As one television announcer touted Big Brown's win, you could see Eight Belles in the background being euthanized.<br /><br />I am not a member of PETA. I am not a fanatic that believes that cows and pigs are not made to eat. After all, I love steak and bacon. But raising animals for food is one thing. And, yes, I fully realize how cruel that can be also.<br /><br />But watching a horse who is bred to live to run and will do so with all of it's heart, giving his or her life for the Sport of Kings is too much to bear. I am by no stretch of the imagination an expert on race horse breeding, but I do know that selective breeding is an integral part of the sport.<br /><br />The horses are bred for speed and a love to race. It's in their blood, literally. And all too often these two are at odds with each other.<br /><br />So if you have a strong stomach and a heart of stone, find a video of the last race of Go For Wand. You will see a horse bred for racing with a love for the sport so great that she gave us one of the most...No the very most...heartbreaking glimpses of a horse bred to be a racehorse and one who would keep trying at all costs. After shattering one her front legs, she gallantly arose and continued to stumble to the finish line on three legs, her shattered leg grotesquely flopping around.<br /><br />And then there is Ruffian, another filly with a determined desire to win. She had never lost a race in her ten starts. This beautiful filly did not know how to lose. She was and still is considered to be one of the greatest race horses to run the oval tracks.<br /><br />But how would she stand up againt 'the boys'. A match race was set. Only two horses run a match race. The two competetors were Ruffian and a colt named Foolish Pleasure, winner of that year's Kentucky Derby.<br /><br />As the two horses galloped down the back stretch, Ruffian pulled ahead of the colt by half a length. As 50,000 spectators watched from the stands, and another 18 million (yes 18 MILLION) watched the historic race on live television, the horrified audiance watched as Ruffian broke down. She had broken her left front ankle. A compound fracture that left the bone exposed.<br /><br />On her broken ankle, her hoof flying up toward the sky with each stride, she continued the race on the exposed bone, grinding into the dirt of the race track. She was euthanized the following day after veterinarians attempted to mend her mangled ankle.<br /><br />Although I enjoyed watching those special animals running for the roses attempting to win the elusive triple crown, the 2008 Kentucky Derby and other races, have taken the joy for the sport away from me. I no longer watch them.<br /><br />Here's to Go For Wand, Eight Belles, and Ruffian, and all of the other thoroughbreds who were born to race, with huge hearts and an unstoppable desire to win.Lynnhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00366766609021695748noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-35931529.post-44282796837468321442008-04-16T04:30:00.003-06:002008-04-16T04:44:17.019-06:00Signs that make you go "hummmm"...This may be old but I just stumbled across it.....Made me giggle!<br /><br /><br />In a Tokyo Hotel: Is forbidden to steal hotel towels please. If <br />you are not person to do such thing is please not to read notis. **averts eyes**<br /><br />In another Japanese hotel room: Please to bathe inside the tub. **tub of What?**<br /><br />In a Buchrarest hotel lobby: The lift is being fixed for the next <br />day. During that time we regret that you will be unbearable. **I'd be unbearable too if I have to take the stairs**<br /><br />In a Leipzig elevator: Do not enter the lift backwards, and only <br />when lit up. **I ain't too good at walking backwards anyway and I'd probably fall down the elevator shaft**<br /><br />In a Belgrade hotel elevator: To more the cabin, push wishing <br />floor. If the cabin should enter more persons, each one should <br />press a number of wishing floor. Driving is then going to <br />alphabetically by national order. **wishing floor...Witch one is Taylor on?**<br /><br />In a Paris hotel elevator: Please leave your values at the front <br />desk. **I KNEW there was a reason I wanted to visit Paris^^<br /><br />In a hotel in Athens: Visitors are expected to complain at the <br />office between the hours of 9 and 11 am daily. *At my office it's from 7am to 4:30pm**<br /><br />In a Yugoslavian hotel: The flattening of underwear with pleasure <br />is the job of the chambermaids. **ouch**<br /><br />In the lobby of a Moscow hotel across from a Russian Orthodox <br />monastery: You are welcome to visit the cemetery where famous <br />Russian and Soviet composers, artists and writers are buried <br />dailly except Thursday. **Who is buried on Thursday? Ballet dancers?""<br /><br />In an Austrian hotel catering to skiers: Not to perambulate the <br />corridors in the hours of repose in the boots of ascension.<br /><br />On the menu of a Swiss restaurant: Our wines leave you with <br />nothing to hope for. **happens in the US too**<br /><br />On the menu of a Polish hotel: Salad a firm's own make; limpid <br />red beet soup with cheesy dumplings in the form of a finger; <br />roasted duck let loose; beef rashers beaten up in the country <br />people's fashion. **sounds Yummy!**<br /><br />In a Hong Kong supermarket: For your convenience, we recommend <br />courageous, efficient self-service. (Sounds like Halifax!)<br /><br />Outside a Hong Kong tailor shop: Ladies may have a fit upstairs. **heads unstairs**<br /><br />In a Bangkok dry cleaner's: Drop your trousers here for best <br />results. **Hey! That's My line!**<br /><br />Outside a Paris dress shop: Dresses for street walking. **Not that deperate yet!**<br /><br />In a Rhodes tailor shop: Order your summers suit. Because is big <br />rush we will execute customers in strict rotation. **going only when the line is short**<br /><br />Similarly, from the Soviet Weekly: There will be a Moscow <br />Exhibition of Arts by 15,000 Soviet Republic painters and <br />sculptors. These were executed over the past two years. **I thought they stopped excuting them years ago!**<br /><br />In an East African newspaper: A new swimming pool is rapidly <br />taking shape since the contractors have thrown in the bulk of <br />their workers. **???**<br /><br />In a Vienna hotel: In case of fire, do your utmost to alarm the <br />hotel porter. <br /><br />In a Zurich hotel: "Because of the impropriety of entertaining <br />guests of the opposite sex in the bedroom, it is suggested that <br />the lobby be used for this purpose."<br /><br />A sign posted in Germany's Black Forest: It is strictly forbidden <br />on our black forest camping site that people of different sex, for <br />instance, men and women, live together in one tent unless they are <br />married with each other for that purpose. <br /><br />In the office of a Roman doctor: "Specialist in women and other <br />diseases."<br /><br />In an advertisement by a Hong Kong dentist: Teeth extracted by <br />the latest Methodists. <br /><br />A translated sentence from a Russian chess book: A lot of water <br />has been passed under the bridge since this variation has been <br />played. <br /><br />In a Rome laundry: Ladies, leave your clothes here and spend the <br />afternoon having a good time. <br /><br />In a Czechoslovakian tourist agency: Take one of our horse-driven <br />city tours -- we guarantee no miscarriages. <br /><br />Advertisement for donkey rides in Thailand: Would you like to <br />ride on your own ass? <br /><br />On the faucet in a Finnish washroom: To stop the drip, turn cock <br />to right. <br /><br />In the window of a Swedish furrier: Fur coats made for ladies <br />from their own skin. <br /><br />On the box of a clockwork toy made in Hong Kong: Guaranteed to <br />work throughout its useful life.<br /><br />Detour sign in Kyushi, Japan: Stop: Drive sideways, (Sounds like <br />Boston!) <br /><br />In a Swiss mountain inn: Special today -- no ice cream. <br /><br />In a Copenhagen airline ticket office: We take our bags and send <br />them in all directions. <br /><br />On the door of a Moscow hotel room: If this is your first visit <br />to the USSR, you are welcome to it. <br /><br />In a Norwegian cocktail lounge: Ladies are requested not to have <br />children in the bar. <br /><br />At a Budapest zoo: Please do not feed the animals. If you have <br />any suitable food, give it to the guard on duty. <br /><br />In an Acapulco hotel: The manager has personally passed all the <br />water served here. <br /><br />In a Tokyo shop: Our nylons cost more than common, but you'll <br />find they are best in the long run. <br /><br />From a Japanese information booklet about using a hotel air <br />conditioner: Cooles and Heates: If you want just condition of <br />warm in your room, please control yourself. <br /><br />From a brochure of a car rental firm in Tokyo: When passenger of <br />foot heave in sight, tootle the horn. Trumpet him melodiously at <br />first, but if he still obstacles your passage then tootle him with <br />vigor. <br /><br />Two signs from a Majorcan shop entrance: <br /> -- English well talking. <br /> -- Here speeching American.<em></em><br /><br /><br />Got tired of adding my own **comments**.. Feel free to add your own!Lynnhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00366766609021695748noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-35931529.post-8963070175678458852008-04-08T23:43:00.005-06:002008-04-09T00:36:25.436-06:00Passion??Ok....This has been getting under my skin for a long time. This is the reason I stopped watching the Oprah Winfrey show.
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<br />Apparently every single one of us Must Have a Passion in life. If you don't have a passion, you don't have anything to live for. (Very loosely paraphrasing the all-knowing Oprah.)
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<br /><span style="font-size:85%;color:#ff0000;"><em><strong>I believe the only reason we're here is to find out what we love…and get about the business of living it!" —
<br />Oprah</strong></em></span>
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<br />Now, I don't particularly have a passion. A passion like writing, skydiving, crafting, decorating, making sushi, building boats, growing organic (or any other type) of vegetable.
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<br />So I assume that the almighty Oprah has decided that I do not have a reason to be here.
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<br />The following is a mantra for Oprah:
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<br /><strong><em><span style="font-size:85%;"><strong><em><span style="font-size:85%;color:#ff0000;">True happiness comes when you "do" what you're most
<br />passionate about. You have gifts to give to the world. So, what's holding you
<br />back? Break though your fear, overcome your obstacles, and start pursuing your
<br />passion today...</span></em></strong>
<br /></span></em></strong><strong><em><span style="font-size:85%;"></span></em></strong>
<br /></span></em></strong>Interpolating from this statement, I will never find "true happiness" because I don't have anything that I am truly passionate about.
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<br />Truthfully, I am doing good to get through the day. Maybe I'm passionate about 4:30 when I can leave work.
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<br />Here are some "encouraging" but very obtuse words of wisdom:
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<br /><span style="font-size:85%;color:#ff0000;"><em><strong>Choose One Idea to Pursue
<br />Don't let having too many ideas keep you from taking action. There are no "perfect" ideas, so just start somewhere. If you feel like you're still looking for your passion, follow these five steps. </strong></em></span>
<br /><p><span style="font-size:85%;color:#ff0000;"><span style="font-size:100%;color:#000000;">Ok. Surely these steps will help me find my passion.</span></p><em><strong>Brainstorm
<br />Because it's easy to feel creatively blocked or paralyzed by fear, one of the best ways to overcome your obstacles is to call upon the wisdom of others in a brainstorming session.</strong></em></span> (Do I even know wise people? Wise asses maybe. So exactly what are we supposed to brainstorm about??? Very informative piece of advice Oprah.)<span style="font-size:85%;"><span style="color:#ff0000;"><em><strong>Learn how to brainstorm and see how three women overcame their obstacles with this exercise.</strong></em></span> </span><span style="font-size:100%;">(Three whole women overcame their obstacles! Wooooooo!)
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<br /><span style="font-size:85%;color:#ff0000;"><em><strong>Find Encouragement
<br />Put an insurance policy in place by finding two or three people to encourage and support your efforts. </strong></em><span style="font-size:100%;color:#000000;">(Efforts in what exactly? Pursuing your unknown and brow furrowing "passion"?)</span><em><strong> Turn to these people when you feel afraid, frustrated, resigned or excited about your progress! When you feel afraid (and you will) find support. Follow six steps to create a Passion Support Group.</strong></em></span> (A what?? Is that like AA?)
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<br /><span style="font-size:85%;color:#ff0000;"><em><strong>Take the Leap
<br />Once you have an idea and a plan of action, it's time to do something immediately. Take one step towards your passion right now.</strong></em></span> (AGAIN with the passion!!) <span style="font-size:85%;color:#ff0000;"><em><strong>Sign up for a class, write a poem, find a mentor or schedule a brainstorming group today. Write down your goals in your journal.</strong></em></span> (My goal is to win the lottery. Now, help me do that Passion Support Group.)
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<br /><span style="font-size:85%;color:#ff0000;"><em><strong>What steps are you taking to pursue your passion?</strong></em></span> (Yet more passion!) <span style="font-size:85%;color:#ff0000;"><em><strong>Share your achievements and stumbling blocks. Help others on the road to pursuing their passions.</strong></em></span>
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<br />That is the main reason I finally quit watching Oprah. I felt inadequate after watching one her shows. So I don't have a passion. Big Deal. Does that make me any less a person? Maybe it does, I dunno. All I know is that talking about finding your passion is easier said than done!
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<br />If anybody has any suggestions, please let me know! I'd hate to let Oprah down!
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<br />(Ok....Maybe my one passion is Taylor)
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<br />Lynnhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00366766609021695748noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-35931529.post-87977288399037775342008-03-28T05:45:00.001-06:002008-03-28T05:45:56.802-06:00Oxymoron for the day...Wireless Router<br /><br />Wireless. Really??Lynnhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00366766609021695748noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-35931529.post-41525431620321232552008-03-21T23:30:00.002-06:002008-03-22T00:04:39.036-06:00Sub-Contractors are like a.........box of chocolates. Ya never know whut chere gonna get.<br /><br />I bought a house for me once we sold our home.<br /><br />It is 3 levels. I only live on the main floor. One bedroom, one tiny bathroom, a kitchen, and a living room the size of a postage stamp. And I don't mean the really pretty postage stamps with flowers and hearts and superheros on then. I mean the plain old postage stamps.<br /><br />So I've been doing some remodeling. I've had part of the wall separating the living room from the kitchen partially removed. I had a work shed installed in my back yard. I've had someone come over to put a tin roof on my back deck and build a couple of gates so my dog could go out on the back porch. I've hired and fired the guy I picked to retile the tub surrounds.<br /><br />Right now I am living in a cloud of sheetrock and other various dust particles. I believe this dust might just kill me before the cigarettes do!<br /><br />Needlesss to say, most of the work I've had done is sub-par. But I have figured out the modis-operindi of the sub-contractor. They stay around indefinitely, sometimes showing up and sometimes skipping it all together. The whole point of this is to finally wear you down. They stay and stay supposudly working on your project until you have finally had enough. Then you tell them to Get Out! Not caring if the job is finished or the work is well done. I truly believe that this tactic is covered in the appendix of the Sub-Contractors Manual. If I could only find a copy, I could prove my theory.<br /><br />I can't expound on all of the renovation issues in this blog. But I'm thinking about writing a book which divulges the method to their madness. It is however, a brilliant way to ditch an undesirable project. Expecially with some chick that has an eye for detail. Subs Hate that.<br /><br />One very bright spot that shines like the sun on a spring day. I hired a friend of mine to finish the tile work. He has taken on the job and done it beautifully. Working long and hard to cover all of the "details" I found that were not up to par. He has worked long past the agreed upon quote ran out. All he wants to do is make me happy. To him it is a challenge to see if he can do the job just like I want it. What a God send.<br /><br />Anyhoo. That's my lame-ass blog for now.<br /><br />I miss all of you so much and I promise to read your blogs on a more frequent basis. After all, I'm Dana's biggest fan, Trav knows my undeniable weakness for the knee-thingy, Am is, well, Am and I love her beyond reason, Robin & Wayne have been friends when I needed friends, and So Many Others that mean a great deal to me. I've been missing out on keeping up with your lives. But I will give it the old college try to get back into the swing again.<br /><br />Don't forget about me. I've haven't forgotten about you.<br /><br />Toodles!Lynnhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00366766609021695748noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-35931529.post-1330600018504656122008-03-18T04:43:00.002-06:002008-03-18T04:45:11.819-06:00Ahem...Hello....Anybody out there??Just checkin'!<br /><br />Been bloggin a little on myspace but will try to update here too.<br /><br />So much I need to catch up on!<br /><br />Oh and by the way I....<br /><br />oops I'm late! gotta get ready for work!<br /><br />Toodles!Lynnhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00366766609021695748noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-35931529.post-7807335651399897092007-12-10T01:11:00.000-06:002007-12-10T01:15:34.291-06:00I'm a-blogging....Hi all y'all!!!!<br />I am blogging for the first time in Months!<br /><br />All is going well for me.<br /><br />The big new is....<br /><br />Oh crap. I have to take the dog out!<br /><br />Stay tuned for more insightful musings.<br /><br />Toodles!!Lynnhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00366766609021695748noreply@blogger.com5tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-35931529.post-812598888676062802007-09-11T16:20:00.000-06:002007-09-11T19:22:21.031-06:00HeartbreakSo many of my friends here have suffered so much more heart ache than I have. So many have lost loved ones, seen a much loved family member or friend struggle with pain, watched and waited helplessly as someone dear to them gradually losses their memory, held their child's hand as they go though the sometimes painful process of growing up and moving on. I am lucky and blessed that my family and loved ones are well.<br /><br />But yet my heart is breaking. I can actually feel it in my chest as it comes apart. It feels like someone has reached in and squeezed it so it is bruised and has cut it, not through and through, but just enough so that it is barely hanging together by a tiny, fragile thread.<br /><br />My husband and I sold our house.<br /><br />We put the house on the market in order to live in separate households when it sold. Now the reason for us living together is gone.<br /><br />I miss him already. I cannot imagine sitting alone in another house knowing that he is not going to be calling me to let me know that he is running late or is on his way home. <br /><br />I have always known that, no matter what is happening, he will always come home.<br /><br />I miss hearing him sing funny songs to the dogs. I miss the smell of the house after he showers and gets dressed. I miss hearing him whistle in the morning. I miss hearing his voice on the phone asking me if I would like for him to pick me up something to eat on his way home. I miss getting daily hugs and being able to tell each other "I love you". I miss kissing him goodbye in the morning while he is still in bed. And each morning before I go to work, he tells me I look beautiful even though I don't feel beautiful. I miss him pointing out deer or turkeys or some other wild thing to me knowing that it makes me smile to see them. I miss him telling me about a new colt that was just born on a farm nearby so I can be sure to ride by and see it on it's wobbly legs. I miss knowing that, if I need to, I can sit with him in his big chair and he will put his arms around me. I miss him telling me "Thank You" for doing things that I should do willing anyway, like vacuuming the floors or washing his clothes or putting fresh sheets on his bed. I miss the notes he used to leave me where he drew pictures of an eye, a heart, and a ewe for I Love You.<br /><br />He has done so much more for me than I have done for him. He has given me so much more than I have given to him.<br /><br />Even though we have been walking separate paths the past several months, they have always run side-by-side. I always knew that if I looked over, I would see him there watching over me. Now our paths are widening apart and I know that if I look for him I will find him. But the comfort of his presence and love will no longer be within arms reach.<br /><br />He is a good man.<br /><br />I miss him already.<br /><br />My heart is breaking.Lynnhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00366766609021695748noreply@blogger.com10tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-35931529.post-30619060593409879642007-07-11T20:25:00.000-06:002007-07-11T20:27:07.381-06:00Dang!I just checked my blog and saw that I had SIX comments! Someone out there is checking my lame-ass blog!<br /><br />(And I did go btw......But that's another blog altogether.)<br /><br />Smooches!Lynnhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00366766609021695748noreply@blogger.com9tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-35931529.post-67342880077250656152007-06-27T23:05:00.000-06:002007-06-27T23:10:11.974-06:00As The Clash asked....should I stay or should I goACM(NTH) is playing in Montgomery Saturday night. If I dress in disguise, do you think I could get away with just listening to the music????? If I PROMISE not to make a fool of me or ACM(NTH). Please Please give me permissions! (Except for Am...I know I won't get permissions from her!)<br /><br />Want good music in my life. NEED good music in my life. Don't need acm(nth). Just his music.<br /><br />Permission granted or denied. Not that I will necessaily take your advice....but thought I'd get input if anybody is reading my lame ass blog!Lynnhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00366766609021695748noreply@blogger.com6tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-35931529.post-51967031440201483402007-06-27T23:02:00.000-06:002007-06-27T23:04:52.864-06:00The Knee ThingsPaging Travis......Paging Travis.....Travis please pick up on the white phone.<br /><br />I am in desparate need of Travis to visit FBB again. I miss the magic foxhole with the wonderful supply of leather jackets, harps, etc.<br /><br />And the knee thingy. I am having withdrawals!Lynnhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00366766609021695748noreply@blogger.com4tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-35931529.post-30797302690051207172007-06-26T20:01:00.000-06:002007-06-26T20:17:59.511-06:00The Humane SocietyIt's official. My house has turned into an animal shelter. <br /><br />We now have three dogs and a cat.<br /><br />And when I say dogs, I don't mean the little fluffy kind that greet you when you get home and will sit with you quietly on the couch or bed while you are relaxing after a long day at work.<br /><br />Oh No. I mean the kind of dogs that weigh 60-70 pounds and are still growing. I mean the kind of dogs that you just can let loose in the yard because they have not properly trained (yet). And when they are not on a leash and unsupervised, they have to stay in their kennels...which are In The House. They are currently taking up approximatly 40 square feet of my laundry room. And with the dogs/dog kennels in the house, hair follows.<br /><br />And I don't mean a few stray hairs here and there. I mean that the amount of hair that ends up in my house daily could easily be woven into a room size rug. It is a battle I cannot win. And one, in fact, that I have given up on winning.<br /><br />and I am sick and tired of it. i am sick of training them. taking them out to the bathroom every few hours on a leash. sick of trying to keep them from tying up with each other. sick of trying to keep them from tying up with other furry mammals. sick of ..... just sick of all of it.<br /><br />All I every wanted was just a dog. One dog. A dog that is not smarter than me. A dog that is as lazy as I am. A dog that doesn't require 24 hour supervision.<br /><br />In fact, I'm thinking about moving out of my house and moving into our local animal shelter.Lynnhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00366766609021695748noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-35931529.post-38657154768016834842007-05-28T19:46:00.001-06:002007-05-28T19:47:31.488-06:00Levity:)<br /><br /><br /><br /><object width="425" height="350"><param name="movie" value="http://www.youtube.com/v/NVOFmu2ZIqI"></param><param name="wmode" value="transparent"></param><embed src="http://www.youtube.com/v/NVOFmu2ZIqI" type="application/x-shockwave-flash" wmode="transparent" width="425" height="350"></embed></object>Lynnhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00366766609021695748noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-35931529.post-21093819206566849692007-05-27T18:56:00.000-06:002007-05-27T21:02:17.539-06:00LessonsI have learned.<br /><br />I have learned that when you enter a relationship "just for sex", it only makes you whore. And when a woman-of-a-certain-age makes that decision, it makes her not only a whore, but a pathetic whore.<br /><br />A whore does not get or deserve respect from her sex partner. It's understandable. That is what makes her a whore.<br /><br />Why bother taking time to find out what she thinks, what she feels, what makes her laugh and cry. They are both are getting exactly what was agreed upon. Just sex.<br /><br />It doesn't keep her from being lonely. I've learned that, ironically, makes her lonelier.<br /><br />I've learned that whores do not get their hands held tenderly. They do not get lingering hugs or sweet kisses. They do not sit at tables with their partners, leaning in toward one anther to talk and laugh the way lovers do. The are not introduced to friends. The are not invited to spend the night after a tryst. So they go home, or are left, to sleep alone. Since a she and her partner are not lovers, whores do not get the privilege of going to sleep in another's arms.<br /><br />I've learned that men do not take a whore to a public place. If they happen to run into each other in a public place, she is ignored, and rightly so. I've been told that if it is known that he is fucking a whore, it would scare off women with whom he may possibly want to develop a more meaningful relationship. Of course, any relationship above the whore-level is a more meaningful relationship.<br /><br />If a whore is delusional enough be hope for more, she will do and say things that humiliate herself. But even worse, those things humiliate her partner too. Whores that want more from the arrangement will cling to the hope that one day, he will realize that she is respectable enough, interesting enough, witty enough, to warrant more than an orgasm. <br /><br />I've learned that when a woman-of-a-certain-age decides to become a whore, the fault for any and all heartache, tears, rage, and humiliations suffered by her or her partner lays squarely on her shoulders. The reason I believe this is because I've learned that men do not make women whores, women do that to themselves.<br /><br />This has been a really important lesson for me. One which I have, fortunately, not had to learn until this point in my life. I hope it "takes." Thank you to all of my friends who have done their best to tutor me through this lesson. But it is one that I had to learn for myself. And even though the lesson has been learned, I cannot say that I will pass the test.<br /><br />The following lyrics ironically came to mind after I wrote this post:<br /><br /><em>Lonely women make good lovers<br />They're all at mercy of a good lookin' smooth talkin' man<br />Lonely women make good lovers<br />So if you got a woman better treat her just as good as you can<br /><br />Lots of times a lonely girl will go out on the town<br />With no thought of evil on her mind<br />She don't try to plant bad seeds<br />But there's something every woman needs<br />And a friendly smile will tempt her every time<br /><br />Once a woman's tasted love she can't live without it<br />She'll search for something warm when she gets cold<br />And if her lips are wet with wine when it comes to lovin' time<br />She'll trade her pride for something warm to hold<br /><br />-Writers: Freddy Weller, Spooner Oldham<br />-1972 Careers Music, BMI</em>Lynnhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00366766609021695748noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-35931529.post-50499724033863433012007-05-21T23:02:00.000-06:002007-05-22T07:40:53.069-06:00Robbie AmonettIt's not called Bull Ridin', it's called Rodeoin'.<br /><br />Get a mental picture of a cross between the most commonly known image of Jesus and Bo Bice and you have Robbie Amonett.<br /><br />He's rodeoed all over the country. And has tattoos of some of his rides. He once scoured the parking lot of a Wal-Mart to gather the funds to enter a rodeo. He picked up $90. And won $5000.<br /><br />Gotten stranded in Oregon by accepting a (one-way) plane ticket from an internet girlfriend who was (unbeknownst to him) married. Since he had $5 in his pocket and couldn't afford the plane ticket home, she "kept him" (as she fully intended) for a few months while he saved up money to get back home.<br /><br />He has worked as a welder off shore and on. While working off-shore, he discovered a talent for art by copying the most prolific art on the boat; pornography. He drew pictures, cut them out and covered the wall with them. His boss came into his quarters one day and told him he should go to college to study art. And here he is in Montevallo, studying art. He also has a business degree.<br /><br />He once accepted a plane ticket from a former boss to go to the Virgin Islands to work. He lived there for a year building a casino at St. Croix.<br /><br />He's written humorous poetry about the life he lived while he was rodeoing. Traveled with Chris Shivers and attended a bull riding camp put on by Tuff Hedeman. He's been to Brazil to study with Adriano Moraes and other Brazilian riders.<br /><br />Old love letters and pictures of him as a kid, photos of his family, old girlfriends, of his bull riding days, and various other memorabilia fill his photo albums.<br /><br />The apartment he lives in is three rooms in a basement. There is no TV, no internet service, no phone (other than his cell). His music is played on a turn table with albums purchased for 50 cents from the thrift store. His power bill is $29 per month.<br /><br />Smiles come easily, and laughter too. Mild mannered and a Southern Gentleman, as he calls himself.<br /><br />He has lived in San Diego, Ft. Worth, Mississippi, Oregon (see above), the Virgin Islands (see above again), and other places I haven't learned about yet.<br /><br />He's been married before, and divorced a year later. He found out his wife was having an affair beginning two weeks after they were married. In his words, with a laugh he tells me "At least somebody was gettin' some. ‘Cause I sure wasn't".<br /><br />He is a vegetarian. but does not condemn those who are not. He, in fact, called me a smart ass when I offered him some bacon once.<br /><br />One week he camped at the bottom of the Grand Canyon.<br /><br />He was a roadie for a band for about a year. Traveling all over the southeast. He has just started playing bass guitar for a band and which has their first gig in a few weeks.<br /><br />Tonight he made shadow puppets on the ceiling using a candle and a wine bottle opener and made me laugh out loud.<br /><br />Smoking dope should not be illegal according to him. One should be able to grow their own for personal use. With which I do not disagree.<br /><br />He has a kitten named Nugget who has the run of the house.<br /><br />There is no door to his bedroom. Only hanging "hippie beads." And he has a Glade Air Freshener that lights up with different colors. Says he might get some more just for the fun of it.<br /><br />The fridge does not have any beer or alcohol. Soy milk and Cherrywine colas.<br /><br />He's lived in the hayloft of various barns and other sundry places. <br /><br />Today he purchased a book about building a house out of organic materials and wants to live independent of the confines of those things commonly taken for granted today. His plan is to be completely self-sufficient so, as he says, when the end time comes, he won't have to depend on anyone to supply his needs.<br /><br />He has lived more in his 31 years than I will ever live in my lifetime.<br /><br />Robbie is one of the most interesting people I have ever met. I will, one day, persuade him to put his stories to paper.Lynnhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00366766609021695748noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-35931529.post-2980154603360020212007-05-08T22:03:00.000-06:002007-05-08T22:06:45.683-06:00Introducing Chet Atkins....I love the sound of music being made............<br /><br />Georgia On My Mind<br /><br /><object width="425" height="350"><param name="movie" value="http://www.youtube.com/v/DdxOZkvf5vE"></param><param name="wmode" value="transparent"></param><embed src="http://www.youtube.com/v/DdxOZkvf5vE" type="application/x-shockwave-flash" wmode="transparent" width="425" height="350"></embed></object><br /><br /><br />Danny Boy<br /><br /><object width="425" height="350"><param name="movie" value="http://www.youtube.com/v/ArZcGARLmrM"></param><param name="wmode" value="transparent"></param><embed src="http://www.youtube.com/v/ArZcGARLmrM" type="application/x-shockwave-flash" wmode="transparent" width="425" height="350"></embed></object>Lynnhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00366766609021695748noreply@blogger.com3